I Prefer to Be True to Myself

I prefer to be true to myself, even at the endangerment of finding the ridicule of others, rather than to be false and finding my own detestation. Why should I worry about what others think of me? I don’t give a shit about how others perceive my personality because, to begin with, I know myself and I also know my own demons- which, at the outset, are just conventional behaviors of an ordinary human being. As an individual, at all times, I think of my own benefits and gains- doing things for my own advancement and betterment. And at the time, I am self-seeking and egocentric.

I only care for myself. The more introverted, the more ignored: and the more unsustained I am, the more I will value myself. I make mistake. I am who I am. Nevertheless, I believe that I am good and I also believe that I am capable of being better. I don’t want everyone to like me- I should think less of myself if some people did. Everything that happens to me is a reflection of what I believe about myself. for me, there is no actual rule in this word but only personal norms of how we limit ourselves. I don’t have any terrific self-esteem issues but I do sometimes comprehend that I’ve been too lucky in my life and that I’m over-praised by some people at the rarest of moments. I respect myself, and I only respect those people who respect themselves.

For me, self-awareness is having a clear perception of your personality, including your thoughts, beliefs, motivation, and emotions- it allows me to understand other people, how they perceive me, my attitude, and my responses to them at the moment. I could say that I am aware of my own weaknesses and strengths. I know my own capacities- my potentials and assets that make me stand out from others. I also know my disadvantages – my negativities that make up my flaws and weak spots. Evidently, as a person, I also have the inclination not to distinguish my own traits and behaviors. My friends tell me that I have this inadequate attitude of not caring or not being aware of the occurrences in my surroundings. I have the tendency not to care too much about the things happening within my environment. However, I am managing to let loose of my hidden self and mend my self-disclosure facility. My self-awareness is quite high because I always ask people around me about their perception of me and how they see me as a friend or companion.

I am free-spoken to myself. I accept criticisms. I believe that accepting criticisms could actually develop my personality – that to any further extent, it would build up my personal appeal and would make me a better person. Having a clear understanding of my thought and behavior patterns would help me understand other people as well. All of my life, I want to be so brave to say and do what I want. I have heard people say that self-esteem is very important to my interpersonal communication and I must have high confidence or self-esteem.

I don’t really have a high sense of worth. I just do things for a purpose, for intention. My self-esteem depends on situations. If I am prepared enough to do a particular task, my self-esteem is imminent. If I am not, then my self-esteem is low. But since I was a kid, I’ve developed skills in facing different kinds of people. I believe I am important and I believe that the word is better because I am in it. I have confidence in myself and my abilities, and that I am able to ask for help. I trust my decisions and at times, I believe that I am my own best resource. I feel confident about my appearance and abilities. From that, I form a good self-image about myself.

Self-awareness is something so crucial which an individual can’t live or survive and without it, a person will become incompetent, impassionate, weak, and overall is not in control of oneself. It is extremely vital in a career, especially for leaders, since they should be able to decide immediately, they should not hesitate or doubt their decisions, and they must think objectively for the betterment of their members.

Knowing what I really am, what I like and dislike, and what I excel at or not helps me see the clearer picture as to where I want to end up in my career. It is especially challenging if I won’t be in an environment that I personally enjoy or prefer. Self-awareness can help me in my future career by determining what’s best for my physical, emotional, and mental wellbeing so that I can settle at my future job with ease and with no regrets. It is essential to become self-aware since not understanding and seeing what’s inside you could cause complications, such as existential or identity crisis, having a complex personality, and overall not being certain about the choices for yourself, the people around you, and especially your future career.

My easiest and personal way of cultivating self-awareness, firstly, is to take down notes on the simplest things about myself- i.e., what food do I like? what are my pet peeves? what are my favorite songs? how can I focus on studying? and so much more. Secondly, find or make time for leisure or recreational activities since I didn’t have any talents growing up, I delve into some activities or hobbies to spare time and simply relax by enjoying these pastimes such as, calligraphy, graphic design, painting, playing video games, reading books, watching movies and etc. Lastly, is to talk to someone you are close to and comfortable to vent or rant about what is inside your head because bottling up one’s emotions can lead to mental illnesses and it would be difficult to overcome once it already has started so, therefore, talking to someone and sharing your feelings can make you stay sane and feel that you are not alone battling and tormented by life’s hindrances and obstacles because everyone has their own struggles and understanding and knowing what they are also going through makes you empathize someone’s life.

In conclusion upon what I’ve read and understood is that you shouldn’t question your worth, your capability in performing something because maybe, it isn’t just for you. Don’t blame yourself for not becoming what you want, you are just in the wrong place and you won’t develop your character and become self-aware if you are in the wrong environment. Just like what the article said, “Self-awareness isn’t one truth. It’s a delicate balance of two distinct, even competing, viewpoints”, you can’t always blame yourself for everything because sometimes what is around you can be the cause or solution to the problem, it isn’t always about yourself. One should start asking themselves “what” instead of “why” to understand and learn who they really are and what can we acquire more about ourselves.