Not Every Lose is a Lose

My life experience taught me that you must build the life and happiness you want. Yes, a loving and accepting person at your side helps a lot, but you cannot force a person to make you happy. Happiness is your responsibility. True love is not depending on expectation, it is everlasting. I would explain you my real-life experience about love for better understanding about how love create stress or not.

I remember when I met a girl in college, and she talked me first time in college garden, I felt suddenly my heart started beating fast and my cheeks colour red. I think I got instant crush on her. After few days, I again met her at bus stop and same thing happen again. Then, I thought when I meet this girl why my heart started beating fast. Next day, at workplace I talked some girls, but I do not feel anything such as heart beating fast. One more interesting thing, one time she did not submitted assignment of one subject when she told me I angry with her why you did not submit the assignments that time I felt like as I missed my assignments then I made her all assignments. She was different from other girls and I always said her, you are special, and we started spent more time with each other. After two months, I talked her and told that when I talk you my heart start beating fast and I feel warm, she gave me little bit smile and said I think you did not talk with girls before met me, so that why you feel like that. After some time, I realised that she did not communicating with me properly, so I asked her why you do not talk to me, if there is any problem tell me, she gave me smile and said me why you take a tension, then I had no answer. After one-week conflicts started arising between us due to some reasons, I wanted to forget her, but always her thoughts and images came in my mind which slowly, slowly converted into stress. I wanted to solve these conflicts, but she blocked my number. Then I sent messages on WhatsApp and Facebook, but she did not reply. After six months, my friend called me, he told me she is going back home, I asked why, he told me I do not know. That time, I was crazy for her, I cannot tell you my situation. Then I called back my friend and said I wanted to meet her onetime because I wanted to propose her. I remember two days, I did not eat properly, I did not sleep.

After two days my friend called her, and she met me in restaurant. When I proposed her, I said when I am with you, I feel differently which I cannot explain you, I love you, will you marry me. But she said me, “my answer is no. Please forget me and move on”. I wanted to forget her but every time her thoughts came in my mind. So, I started taking drugs, it effected my behaviour, that time I was not talking properly with anyone and everybody asked me what happen tell me, why are you sad and it also effected my work performance at workplace. Only one word always came in my mind why she rejected me. I remember that time I felt very sad and day by day stress increases on me. Then one day I thought what I can do for this girl because I like her too much and I could not see sad. After that I did not call back her, I want to solve the misconception between us, but I did not call again because I did not want to hurt her again. That time I realized it is true love, true love means something do which give the happiness to another person. I was felt proud because that time really, I did something big or different which normally people cannot do it. Love is when happiness of another person is more important than your own, even if you are not apart of it. In my opinion true love definitely exists because I believe two people can meet and can fall in love instantly or they can dislike each other for a long time. Then one day they see something different in each other and true love is born.

To summarize, anybody can also loose the person whom he or she love the most, whom want to keep smiling by either naturally or by circumstances but it is needed to keep in mind she/he is the person once you love from the bottom of your hear, so even they leave you with you let them live their life happily. “Not every lose is a lose”.