The Time I Loved The Wrong Person

To love is difficult, you must be willing to hurt despite the gratification. One of the hardest things I have ever made in my life, but I also thought that love is the most powerful and important in this world, without love we are nothing and all of the people in this world are incongruous. What I did not know is that her love is just a temporary pill or in other words, an infatuation.

I was Grade 9 when I met her, we often met in the nice hall when it is called but it was damaged and was constructed by a new building. I was a shy person then, so I was hard to approach with and have so many secrets that have been kept. Every time I saw her, my dark world will turn into lightness as it shines like a beautiful star in the sky but it is just an imagination.

There was a time when I looked at her, she is also looking at me too but just a moment, you know the feeling that you won the lottery as it did in my inner feelings but out of the way it was just like nothing happened. One day I walked into the youth camp in Agusan National High School with my classmates and I have heard that she have feelings in me and I did not believe because I thought it is just a trip. So at that night, I always think at her. A few days have passed, I messaged her in the messenger of the Facebook and we talk a lot, because if that conversation our feelings to each other started to grow. That day was the happiest day of my life and afterwards at night, I couldn’t sleep anymore.

The next morning, we decided to meet at the blue shed and we talked intimately like a boyfriend and girlfriend and because of that, we always go together everywhere and often send her home. We loved one another even though there are so many problems in schools or at family. Until the day came I feared the most that she lost her feelings for me. Her kind personality turned into darkness and her love turned into fear and suddenly left me with no reason. I was just like I have lost hope to live in this world but I have many true friends who have comforted me and I asked God for guidance, help and comfort because he is the only one who can heal my wounded heart.

After all the pain, I gradually forgot her and my heart slowly healed be time. I slowly realized that she is not the only girl who lived in this world, maybe there’s a perfect woman in a perfect time and a perfect place for it. From now on, we treated each other like an awkward friends. I have already forgive her be what she have done to me because I have realized that our life s full of challenges.

I feel free now and I thank her for learning experiences and new things because it makes us a strong and better person. Therefore if you love a person, make sure that your love is everlasting or permanent. If it fades, it is not called love. Now I realized that everything in this world is temporary.