What is Love: My Story

I've been here on the DA for a while and I've seen a lot of people being desperate for finding someone, and then getting into bad relationships. I get sad when I see those kinds of people that take love for granted. So for you, people, who just fool around, let me tell you my story, let me tell you what love really is.

So what really is love? Well, love is a force of nature. No matter how much we may want to, we can't command, demand, or take away love. Not more than we can command the moon, the stars, the wind and the rain to come and go according to our whims.

But, even though we know what love is how do you simply explain it someone who has never experienced it?

How do you explain the feeling to that person when the person next to you has a different view on that subject?

How do you explain that love is the only thing that can make a living man feel dead?

The truth is that you can't, sure you can read about it, but keep in mind that it's another person's way of thinking and feeling. You need to experience it for yourself before you can truly understand what it's like.

This is my story.

As a person who used to think that love was a coward's game I can now say that love isn't something for the weak hearted. Love can break you as easily as it can fix you, it all depends on how you play the cards.

As a kid I never got around the idea of falling in love, I thought it was something unnecessary. I was happy all by myself. But of course as any other kid I had my problems, and as I grew older the problems grew with me. People used to tell me that if I got a boyfriend (or a girlfriend) I would be happy, and that would put my life back together.

I followed what they said, but little me never thought about the idea that one actually has to love the other person to be happy. I was just so excited about the thought that someone actually liked me that way, but in the end I was still as miserable. I understood that something was wrong, I realized that I actually needed to love the other person to become happy.

I started confusing lust with love, I started telling myself that I loved the other person, but I didn't. I got into many bad relationships that caused me to have trust issues.

Not only did I hurt myself, I also hurted the person who's only intention was to love me. But I was young and foolish, I didn't want to be alone. I'm still young, but I've learned from my mistakes.

When I joined the DA I wasn't looking for anyone, I was hoping to make friends (which I did) and just have fun talking with people. I did meet this one guy here last year, he confessed and I was too afraid of turning him down since he was such a good friend. I said yes, we were together for about a month or so before I had enough and left.

The same thing happened a month later, the guy confessed and I was a bit flattered but also afraid of turning him down. We were also together for a month before I ghosted on him.

I didn't know what love truly was (is) until the start of this year. I met a boy that had me at hello, that was the first time I actually got interested before getting confessed to. I thought he was a player since I've been a player so I recognised some of his lines.

He confessed to me and it turned out that he wasn't a player. Of course this time I didn't even hesitate to say yes, I truly liked him. I've been with this guy for over 6 months and I know this is true.

Sorry now I'm just rambling about stuff and I'm pretty sure I'm making no sense..

My point is that it's better to wait than to hurry love.

I actually scrolled through old chats that I had with my exes and I realized that I never actually loved them and that, that wasn't love. I just made myself believe that it was love. After reading those messages I understood that what I have with my boyfriend is true.

But, please try to understand, getting into a relationship because you don't want to be lonely won't be healthy. It won't last. Don't look for a partner, just look for friends and who knows, maybe one of your friends will be your future bf/gf.

For you players, yeah fooling around can be fun. I used to be a player, but it's better to fool around with other players, otherwise you will just hurt the person.